We value the parts of our lives that we have invested in - with our time, our selves, and our money.
And yet, time moves so quickly that it is hard to keep up and keep everything pretty and stay in love with what used to move you, and to enjoy all that you have.
This feeling has been bearing down on me of late - a sense of inability to do it all and a deeper inability to appreciate it all.
I walk around my full life and see only the things that need cleaning or fixing. I find it hard to step back from all that I have to do to appreciate what I have done. I just keep going and doing because I am in deep.
A perfect example is my patio garden that falters between pathetic and thriving. I can never quite get the flow of creating it and maintaining it. I seem to keep repeating this cycle of paying attention to it only to let it fall to the wayside when I get busy. I want to keep it going and thriving because I love it and I chose it. Instead, I keep investing in plants, refinishing the furniture and not spending any quality time out there.
If I am not enjoying it, and it adds to my work load, is it serving me?
I do the work to keep it going, but keep forgetting to enjoy it in between. That is not very practical or meaningful.
